Ya know, I do well enough every day to get out of bed and just break down in tears or fly off the handle and go on a shooting rampage. With everything I have dealt with in my past and everything that I am dealing with currently, I should be given an award every single day that I don't break down or snap. That is no joke either. I am not looking for sympathy or an "Aw, it'll be okay", so please don't. I get by because of the strength that my God gives me. I make it through each day because I am learning to give all of my problems to Him and to allow Him to deal with them. I know that I am not strong enough to handle what I have been through, nor could I even attempt to deal with any of them by themselves, let alone all at once. No matter the storm that I am standing in, no matter how much pain and strife that comes my way, I will praise Him. I will thank Him for all that He has blessed me with and no matter what, He is still on the throne! I have heard a thousand or more times by so many different people "God will not give you more than you can handle." That's a great saying! But where does it say that in the bible? Where did Jesus say that? Wait a second, you mean he never said that at all? It was never written in the bible by anybody? I see, so it is just that, a great saying. I feel and TRULY believe that God wants us to give Him ALL of our problems, no matter how big or small. ALL OF THEM! In the book of Matthew, 11:29 Jesus says "Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls". Philippians 4: 6-7 says this about giving your problems to God; "Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God. And the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus". So you see, nowhere does it say to handle our problems on our own. So, I'm not. I am giving the all to God.
I still have no idea where this blog post is headed. Most likely, it is going nowhere, but I felt compelled to write it nonetheless. Sometimes just getting some of the thoughts out of your head is helpful. Sometimes it is best to express something, even if it amounts to nothing. I know that I am not as close to God as I have been or as I should be. I plan to remedy that though. Prayer. It is something that is so important to a Jesus Follower, yet it is something that is so difficult to us all. I have heard from a bunch of people, "I'm just too busy to pray". I feel that way a lot. But now that I am trying to refocus on Him, I have realized that I'm too busy NOT to pray! With my job, my family and life in general I have started wondering how I have survived this long without prayer. The truth is, I haven't. So many wrong decisions have been made, too many wrong things have been said and too many mistakes were made while I was off trying to do it on my own. Time to focus once more and put Him in my sight at all times. Time to make God the center of my world once again. Most of all it is time to stop trusting in me and start trusting in Him.
It is interesting to see where things take you when you put your whole trust in God. It is amazing to watch Him work for good.
It is time to tune out the American Noise and start turning my eyes to Him.
No matter where I am standing, there is a storm all around me. No matter how much the storm may rage, I will praise You!
